The Life I Desired

That must be the story of innumerable couples， and the pattern of lifeof life it offers has a homely grace。

It reminds you of a placid rivulet， meandering smoohtly through green pastures and shaded by pleasant trees， till at last it falls into the vasty sea; but the sea is so calm， so silent， soquietly， that you are troubled suddently by a vague uneasiness。

Perhaps it is only by a kink in my nature， strong in me even in those days， that i felt in such an existence， the share of the great majority， something amiss。

I recognized its social value。 I saw its ordered happiness， but a fever in my blood asked for a wilder course。 There seemed to me something alarming in such easy delights。

In my heart was desire to live more dangerously。 I was not unprepared for jagged rocks and treacherous， shoals it I could only have change-change and the Stimulate of unforeseen。